Saturday, May 23, 2015

They Asked Me How To Change The World

       I was asked, "How can we change the world?" And I answered, "You will never be able to change the world by projecting ideal images to aspire for. The only way to change the world is to penetrate the grassroots, to penetrate at the groundbreaking level— to be a mason— to dig into the core where all the tar and lumpy mud is located and to work with that shit until you bring out something beautiful. We change the world by dressing wounds, by listening to forgotten voices of the lost, by getting our hands dirty. Nobody is going to be able to change the world by painting a lovely picture. You have to know how to make paint. Then teach the people how to use a paintbrush. Then teach the people how to make strokes, how to wash the paintbrush, and how to mount their own paintings onto the wall. Because the alchemy of the world, of humanity as a whole, is really just the collective alchemy of every individual. Take what is darkness and transmutate it into a shining thing. Changing the world is never about the changer; it is about the world."
       All people want to belong to some sort of hierarchy. Allow me to explain. The rich want to be the richest; the poor want to be the smartest; those who are both rich and smart want to be the better persons; the better persons want to go to heaven; those who are in heaven will look down upon those who are in hell... there is always some kind of hierarchy desired by everyone; even by those who claim the opposite of this. So how do you find true divinity? Divinity is found in those who reach down low; because it is those who are above who must reach down low, while it is those who are below who must constantly reach for what is above! And this is divinity. What is divine, is what will have a curiosity in what is below. There is no fear of becoming "tainted"; because what is lesser can never really taint what is greater. it is what is greater that is able to transform what is lesser. The alchemist must first find the mud, pick it up, before she is able to transform it into diamond. She must first reach into the swamp, in order to pull out roses.

Friday, May 22, 2015

Spacetime and Lifetime

       I have been wondering and I have been thinking... what if we have already died? And what if we have already died many times before? And what if, after death, we simply return to the moment, or the day, or a few days, before the time that we died? And what if that is what deja vu really means? So, what if we are all going through life thinking that death is an ending to this lifetime, meanwhile, everybody has already actually died at least once before? What if we are actually continually reversing in time, going back to those days before our death, only to continue in what we believe is the same life? Receiving a second chance (or hundredth chance) to relive our lives? What if it's like a game and you're game over and you just go back to the last place you saved your game at, to try to do better this time?
       You see, spacetime is not a really fixed rule. In fact, we are still struggling to make meaning of spacetime continuum. It might be a loop, it might be bendy, it might be twisty like a stick of licorice! What if it's totally malleable? What if death has never actually been an end to life?
       When you go under anaesthesia, you wake up after the operation believing that nothing has happened yet, because your brain is connected to the very last moment before you went under the knife. So you wake up after your operation, asking, "Are we going to start now?" But in reality, it's already over! Now, what if this same principle applies to the lives that we are living? Think about it.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

As It Is Above, So Is It Below

       No one can successfully tell me that material things cannot bring happiness. For as the spirit is medicine to the bones; so is the happiness of the bones a medicine to the spirit. Without a soul, the body is dust; but without a body, the soul cannot fulfil destiny. Neither one is more important than the other; both are equally important. One will last longer than the other, yes, but while we are on this Earth, both are equally important. Surely money itself cannot make one happy; but it is what one does with money that makes one happy! If you do not know what to do with it, then it will not bring you happiness! But if you know what to do with it; there is no reason why it cannot bring you happiness. People think I am a very spiritual person; yes, this is true; but I have not achieved it through denial of the flesh. I have a new vision. I take pleasure in the pleasures of this world and I seek fulfilment in the answers of the spirit. I find happiness in the material and the physical things of this nature and I find joy in the connections I have with what is divine. Do I imagine myself on top of a mountain, detached from all the things I want to buy and to own? Never. My spirituality is not one of negative righteousness; my spirituality is one of the rose. It is whole and it is above as it is below.
       This has always been my creed, and C. JoyBell C. was founded upon this creed. I developed this belief as it was revealed to me in my spirit, in my mind's eye. Nobody taught it to me. And then years later, after I had already used my courage to build upon the new foundation that I called my own and that nobody around me believed in; I then came across a very old Rosicrucian manuscript, written some hundred years ago. It is in that manuscript that I discovered that my creed was shared by the Rosicrucians. The creed of the Rosicrucian is to develop a threefold person in all equal portions: Mind, Body and Soul. There is no such thing as negative spirituality (Spirituality that results in a negative effect upon the body, in favour of the Soul). And those who belong to the self-denying spirituality are those who are misled, while in turn misleading others. 
       When I refer to, "The Rose", I am referring to the hidden secrets of the Rosicrucians. When I say, "it is above as it is below", I am referring to the hidden knowledge of Hermes. These things are not hidden to me, so what I freely receive, I also freely give! Although the things that I write are blanketed in modern-day presentations, in order to be understood by everyone; they are still the same ancient teachings that were once only taught to initiates. And who am I as an initiate? That is simple— I am me. 

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Dear Seashell, Know Thyself!

       Hey, my wonderfuls! How is everybody doing today? :) Lately, I have been thinking about "multitasking" and also about "prioritising" and about what these two things mean, for one another and for us as individuals. First up— is "multitasking" even real? Scientifically, it's not. Scientifically, the brain is only able to truly focus on one thing at a time. Does that mean we will not be able to do many quality things? Not really. But does that mean we would live a more productive and fulfilling life if we were to curtail and discipline ourselves to focusing on one thing at a time? Probably so.
       It is the unfortunate reality that we live in a world that has somehow turned many of us into mindless consumers, participating in a worldwide corporation. No longer able to live with meaning, people are increasingly living for profit, or for whatever is able to make them react to stimulus. People have become mere reactions to various stimuli!
       What about prioritising? What does that mean? To me that means choosing what is more important and elevating those important things to a better standpoint in your life, where you are able to give more of your focus and affections, to it.
       So what does this all mean? Well I believe that this means, that it should be one of our greatest pursuits in life, to find the area of our priorities. To retreat from the reality of mindless consumerism and into the gardens within ourselves. Within our souls, we have gardens where our peace may be found; and within our minds we have oases wherein we are Masters of our Will. You may not be the Master of your own Will right now; but somewhere inside of You, you are! Somewhere inside of you, you are not an empty shell!
       Perhaps we are all shells; but some of us have found the pearls inside, and this makes all the difference!
       Marcus Aurelius once said, "Men seek retreats for themselves, houses in the country, sea-shores, and mountains... But this is altogether a mark of the most common sort of men, for it is in thy power whenever thou shalt choose to retire into thyself. For nowhere either with more quiet or more freedom from trouble does a man retire than into his own soul, particularly when he has within him such thoughts that by looking into them he is immediately in perfect tranquility; and I affirm that tranquility is nothing else than the good ordering of the mind."
       We prioritise by identifying those people and those things that deserve a place in the inner gardens of our minds and of our hearts. We keep those things and those people there, regardless of how many other tasks and things we need to look after and to work on, in our daily lives. But it's also where we keep our real selves, it's where we retreat to, in order to meet the pearls within the shells that we are.
       So, maybe it's not scientifically possible to truly multitask and maybe the world only understands how to prioritise on a very shallow surface level, but the whole idea of being you, is being different. And I believe that through these principles, we will be able to exercise this difference in our lives. Living within a system wherein we feel like we need to frantically struggle to keep up with ourselves, just to stay afloat on top of the "noise" (and we call this multitasking), we can be people who are able to go deeper than that, realising and understanding that it is not really about the ability to multitask (which is in itself a proven myth); but that it is really all about age-old principle of Mastership. Know thyself, master thine inner worlds. Create what is on the outside, through what is willed on the inside. As the Rosicrucians say, "When a man Wills for something, and he says, 'Nothing in this world and beyond will be able to stand in between myself and what I will', this is a man so strong that even the gods and angels honour and respect him." It is the Will of both man and woman, that must be cultivated, in order to live the higher form of life that we are all initially called to live.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015



It’s a maddening world we live in

We’re told to pick a crown
So we choose our crowns
And then we are mocked
The colour, size and material
All laughed at

We’re taught to grow thorns
We’re taught to grow fangs and claws
But then we are judged
For becoming ugly
And afraid

It’s a maddening world we live in

We are given voices
Then told to shut up
We are given dreams
Then told they aren’t real
They laugh, they judge, they lie

Wear your crown
Even though they laugh

The way you survived
Isn’t ugly; it’s real

You must sing, you must write
You must dream and then not believe them

You must soften and tremble and unfold

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Tuesday, April 28, 2015

The Ponderings of a Single Flower

       It is a very strange sensation that I feel when I read how other people describe themselves and all of the things that they're doing or all of their achievements... all of the adjectives that they use, all of the things that they do for the world, they list down all the dreams that they have... it's weird for me to hear people refer to themselves as "gurus", as "world-changers"... it's like people WANT to be all of these things... and it's strange for me because these things are thrust upon me but I never asked for them! I don't want to use many adjective to describe myself; I just want to say that I am a person who likes cake. Red velvet specifically. Well, blue velvet is on my wish list (never had that one yet). I grow tired of people telling me how much my work has changed their lives... because honestly, I don't have a dream of changing people's lives! I'm merely friendly, authentic, and I like to meet people— that is all. I don't have a dream of changing the world! And I simply rise to the occasion only because chance keeps on putting me on this path! If I were only living in a beautiful home, with beautiful children, in a beautiful place with beautiful flowers and many chocolates, I would be just as happy as I am now that many people know my name and know about what I do. I might even be happier! Why? Well I suppose this is the difficulty that I bear only because I actually know the meaning of life! Those who do not understand the meaning of life, do not share in this knowledge which can become a burden to have! Am I supposed to grow happier as more and more people know my name? I don't think so... I would rather live in a place where there is much cake at every corner! And many nice shoes to buy! Am I supposed to grow happier because my work changes the lives of people? Why should I? The only portion of the world that we are responsible for, is the portion of the world that is in our hearts and souls! Nobody is born to change anything but his or herself. A flower grows and buds and blossoms, not to make the whole garden beautiful; but a flower grows and buds and blossoms because it wants to. Because it is a flower. And I am just a flower. A flower who finds it strange why and how other flowers think that they are changing the whole garden! Again, this is my fate to think like this, only because I know the meaning of a flower. And so, perhaps there is a truth to the saying that goes, "It is not good to have too much wisdom."
       People send me emails and ask who I am, and I say, "I am me." What else am I supposed to say and what else am I supposed to be? Again, all I know is that before I started doing what it is that I am doing, I felt that there was something that I should be doing! There is a hunger that is planted into the hearts of flowers that are supposed to do things! So, where is the choice, where is the free will, in this? Is free will a reality, if you are destined to go hungry if you do not do something? What if you don't want to do it? What if you just want to be a flower that is there because it wants to be there and not because it must affect the whole garden? But then... you are hungry and so you search for that which may fill your hunger! And then you will always find it strange why other people go around and broadcast how hungry they are! "I do this, I do that, I am this, I am that... I save the world..." all it sounds like to me, is, "I am hungry." And that is why I don't describe myself in such ways; instead, I just say that I want to eat cake! Because then that solves the whole problem!

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