I have very recently been able to come full-circle in life. I don't know if that's a correct term, but what I mean is, after a little over a decade, I've been able to complete an entire circle; where the end of the line meets the beginning of it. And after drawing this circle, I've been able to take a few steps back, and look at it. I can see that it was a puzzle, and all those distinct areas that were so very difficult, so very confusing and impossible to make sense of or to understand; fit into each other and are of each other and together create a finished work, a finished product. Individually, each of those circumstances/times appeared to be worthless mistakes, but now that I am able to view them all together, as many parts of a single whole, I see that the picture is perfect. If one thing didn't happen; the better thing would have never taken place. If that didn't take place; that other better thing wouldn't have ever happened. And it's not a succession of steps like on a ladder or a staircase, but more like a waltz! A back-and-forth, a bow, a curtsy, a whole dance on a ballroom floor! A proportioning of different dimensions being brought together as a whole. Perfection.
I therefore conclude, that perfection is a collection of a variety of pieces that, when viewed and felt individually, are difficult and confusing; but when brought together as one, create a perfect picture. This is Symphony, Harmony. This is Serenity.
I spoke to someone about this, immediately as these thoughts came to me over a dinner of seafood so fresh I could truly taste the ocean waves in every bite of squid, tiger prawn, shrimp, and clam that I took! He said "You know, someone once wrote of something similar to what you're saying, he called it The Theory of Chaos or The Chaos Theory, he said something to the effect that as you look into the pattern of a shell from afar (holding it in your hand) you see a perfectly beautiful pattern, but when you were once inside that pattern, it was complete and utter chaos, everything was a mistake and random. But later when you come out of the shell and hold it in your hand and look at it, you see that nothing at all was random!" And so I thought about what he said, and I picked up the clam shell in front of me and looked at it. I cleaned it up and kept it.
This is what perfection is. You have to complete the circle to see the whole picture, you have to come out of the shell to hold it in your hand and look at the pattern on it, to be able to say that it's perfect, to be able to see perfection. So I believe that's why you can't try to control the outcome of everything, you can't try to dictate your life or the lives of your children, because, something perfect is happening, you just don't know it yet. And if you try to dictate everything, you're going to get into the way of perfection, and the result isn't going to be beautiful.
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